i'm not you. i'll never be close to what you need.

You must think I'm still sixteen
I dropped out of high school for a reason
and I don't care if you're pretty
i'm not admitting you are right
my soul is not a stage
i wont pretend i'm anything i'm not
i know your secrets boy
i don't know where you are tonight
so this is tag, you're it
i stopped playing games when i was 5
stopped playing games when i
when i was five foot five
and my window screen keeps freezing
and the view is always pornographic


a lovely little excerpt from one of my favorite songs, "Still Sixteen" by Old Springs Pike, as they were formerly known (now they're the Spring Standards, fucking great all the same.) So I started a list of self improvements. I've decided there's nothing wrong with marking down a few things i want to work on, as long as it isn't a long list (that would be an indication there's something quite wrong, don't you agree?) and they're only things that i truly feel i want to, well, not fix, because i'm not broken, but just work on, for all the right reasons.
here's the list:
1. Don't be so obnoxious (all of the time. hey, i'm a naturally loud person once i knock the shell.)
2. Let others win sometimes. i don't have to be right all of the time. (i'm stubborn as balls.)
3. Don't be such a loudmouth. (sometimes leaving something to the imagination is more rewarding.)
4. Don't be rude. (i'm generally not a rude person, but sometimes, i can't help it. so from now on, i will.)

at any rate. i want to find a new place. both figuratively and literally speaking. i just want to be able to go in the complete opposite direction of where i've been. i need adventure.

the people i've met have taught me this, and i don't think they know it.