update

i'm attempting to catch up on months worth of lost sleep. it feels kind of nice to just be able to nap upon home arrival and i don't have anything important to do. it's fucking fantastic to know that i can finally place sleep at the top of my to do list. other priorities include school related things, and occupying my weekends with good times and giving the beagle lots of belly rubs.
and tomorrow it looks as though i'm going to be eating some rainbow buffet which, frankly, makes my immediate future seem that much brighter.
this is not to say everything is fine and dandy, because there are too many moments to count where i can't avoid the thought of him and the ache that comes with missing him but i've just got to keep swimming, so to speak.
at any rate, things are okay lately. they're better. then again, very few things are worse than the way things have been in the not so distant past. so i'm thankful. it's the best i can do for now and i'm okay with that